I can't be the only one. I suffer from Schizo-Affective Depressive Type. I hallucinate regularly, though bi-weekly shots of Haldol help a lot. I'm also on it by mouth as needed. For depression, I'm on 40mg Prozac and 300mg Welbutrin daily. I was on 450mg of Welbutrin, but didn't like that high a dosage, so I split it up. I am on propranalol for tremors due to the amount and length of time I've been on Haldol. I was on benztroprine, but just like Celexa for depression, I had prostate side effects. I'd rather be off of prostate effecting medication, than have to take prostate medication as well.
That really effects male sexual function. I'm also severely ADHD inattentive type, but that can't be treated as it would affect my anti-psychotics. What broke me was basic training in the army. They tore me apart emotionally and mentally and were unable to rebuild me. I've been horribly broken ever
since.

Tell us about your mental health journey and issues!

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On 10/30/2025 7:27 PM, Shurato wrote to All:

I can't be the only one. I suffer from Schizo-Affective Depressive Type. I hallucinate regularly, though bi-weekly shots of Haldol help a lot. I'm also
on it by mouth as needed. For depression, I'm on 40mg Prozac and 300mg Welbutrin daily. I was on 450mg of Welbutrin, but didn't like that high a dosage, so I split it up. I am on propranalol for tremors due to the amount and length of time I've been on Haldol. I was on benztroprine, but just like
Celexa for depression, I had prostate side effects. I'd rather be off of prostate effecting medication, than have to take prostate medication as well.
That really effects male sexual function. I'm also severely ADHD inattentive
type, but that can't be treated as it would affect my anti-psychotics. What broke me was basic training in the army. They tore me apart emotionally and mentally and were unable to rebuild me. I've been horribly broken ever since.

Tell us about your mental health journey and issues!

Thank you for sharing! I did 24 years as a Police Officer. Luckily there is little that
affected me, but there are a few things that I recall that did emotionally affect me.

It would be too gross for me to mention most, but there is one thing that I will
remember until I die. I witnessed a man commit suicide while working for Detroit PD
back in 1979. He jumped off a bridge into the icy waters and left behind his running
vehicle which contained 2 uncashed paychecks from Ford Motor, a wallet that contained
a picture of his young bride and a picture of his one-year old daughter.

Of course the story made both the Detroit News and the Detroit Free Press.

Earlier this year, some 46 years later, I got a phone call out of the blue from an unknown
number. It was that one year old child who spent years trying to track me down for
trying to help her father, though unsuccessfully. She was crying and so was I. I was
very cathartic for both of us to speak about it.

My wife and I Zoomed with her about one month after that, and she showed me how
she used ChatGPT to track me down. She also mentioned that when she was growing
up, her mother explained to her everything about the mental problems that her father
endured after serving in the Army, stationed in Viet Nam.

We now consider her as our daughter and speak frequently.

Sometimes good things can come from bad. We all do what we can to make every day
the best day possible.

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Re: Sysops or Users with Mental Health Issues?
By: Shurato to All on Thu Oct 30 2025 07:27 pm

I can't be the only one. I suffer from Schizo-Affective Depressive Type.

I personally have not been diagnosied with mental health issue (may other than anxiety/depression). But my daughter has been diagnosised with Schizo-Affective Bipolar and Schizopheria.

I'll try and compose a summary to share here. I'm heading to bed at the moment.

It was first observed at age 19 and she is 26. She is still living with us and has never had a job. She completed high school, and attended 3 semesters of college before things got out of hand.

She recently finished an 8-week course at a community college. That was a real accomplishment, because her voices tend to get in the way of her studies, and
she ends up having to drop classes.

Thanks for sharing, and I will share more about my daughter and expereinces with mental health.
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Re: Sysops or Users with Mental Health Issues?
By: Amessyroom to Shurato on Wed Nov 05 2025 12:38 am

As promised, here is a summary of my daughters
mental health situtation.

At age 19, she was attending college. Not very far
from home, we drive her back and forth. She had her
license but had not yet developed the confidence to
drive her self.

Her "papa" (grandfather) passed away on MLK day in January.
They were very closer, more so than she was to myself or wife.
They seem to just have a special bond that we never broken.

Approx a year after papa's death, she started having hallucnations.
She was staying over night with MIL. They lived like 1.5 miles away
from our house. She called one morning saying someone was in the
house, and she was afraid that "meme" (grandmother) was going to be
hurt. We called MIL and she answered, and expressed everything was ok.
My daughter insisted someone was in the house, and would not get out
of bed. She had me look under her bed, etc. but in her mind there
was someone invading the house.

The next event was a community college. We convienced her to try it vs continuing at the university she was attending. While touring the campus
she entered a building to find where a class was, and exited with a
security guard. She had gotten lost. My wife then took her to check
another building, and my wife waited while she walked upstairs to find
another classroom. My wife heard her talking, as she stayed on the 1st floor. She asked my daughter who are you talking to, and she responded "a tree outside the window".

We started having her evaulated, and eventually she was admitted so there after to a mental ward behind local hospital. She was 19, and we learned the hardway that parents have not rights of their adult children. So it was a stressful 24-36 hours as she was not in her right mind, and didn't share code with
us to allow us to communicate with her. We learned we would need to get
legal guardianship, to be able to act as her health liason.

We were able to accomplish this a thus began the ordeal that has now been ongoing for 7 years.

She has had multiple stays at mental facilities across the state. Currently, she has been doing better without hospitalization. But the voices still taunt her , and she asks to go to ER. Which normally holds her 24 hours and releases her. So I try and avoid such visits, and discuss with her that we have the
same meds they will use. We just have to use them and give them enough time to assit her, in coping with the situtation.

I believe I have ranted enough. Let me know if this brings up more questions, or topics you would like to discuss about mental health.

It is a struggle for the individual and families involved.
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My voices are persecutory, though generally I can't hear them very clearly. They're just not very nice to me to say the least. Sometimes they're clearer than other times. I rarely have visual hallucinations, aside from occasional burning letters in the air or on walls. I'm not suicidal, have no harmful ideations (except for occasionally when my cat is an a-hole, but the doctor says that doesn't count) and am generally pretty calm. I do have panic
attacks and paranoid episodes, which aren't fun but managed by medication. i used to hospitalize myself before I was stable on meds, but it's not
necessary any more. I'm uncomfortable in crowds, as everyone is staring at
me and talking about me... I do go out with small groups and we mostly stick to ourselves, which is fine by me. I have a tendancy to stare at points in space that aren't connected to anything in particular, which really freaks
out the ladies as they assume I'm staring at them with ill intent, when I'm really staring at a space between us. Oh well. I manage. I'm in public housing, have social security as I'm unable to work and have really good medical coverage through medicare.

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